I never saw this coming... do fairytales really happen? I feel like a little girl caught in a day dream of being a princess. Has my prince come to break my curse?  Can I just lay here in his arms as he kisses me so intimately forgetting the worries of the world.
Please dont let this be a dream.... I need you to be real. I never knew I could be this happy I never thought I could fall in love again. But here I am wondering if I have ever really been in love before. Iv never been treated so gently with such care.
Please dont let this be a dream.... Im falling in Love with you...
I wanted so badly to gaurd my shattered heart hide it away so no one could hurt me again, then u slid ur hand in mine touched ur lips to mine for a simple kiss.
Come What May....

Today is Good

 There is so much coming forth in my life that I always felt was out of my reach or really I never felt worthy of. I have allowed myself to walk in the darkness for so long that it chocked out all the light and life in my heart. The unimaginable became a reality over the years and I thought all hope was lost.
Then I came home to my Daddy......

 The nightmare is finally coming to an end. Iv rid my house of the snakes and set my eyes on God. I finally stood on the solid foundation of Jesus. No matter how hard the rain beats down or the thunder rolls while lightening crashes down around me, my foundation is not shook. So I say to the snake make your threats, throw the poison darts of guilt, aim for my heart, I don't fear you.

My son will be in my arms soon and then he will be coming home to stay and my family will be half way back together. Everything I have worked towards, I am reaping the rewards for never really giving up no matter the fight.
Also, I am learning to take things slow. Finding my way through the lies the snake told that I didn't realize were destroying me. I'm finding Love maybe...no..no... INTIMACY. That's what I have found. I am allowing myself to be lost in it for a moment because I deserve it.

Hmmm... Come What May...today is good.

Beauty from Ashes

When God takes the blinders off and you step back and view your world in truth and honesty. In the light off God. There is so much bull crap to be sorted through you almost dont know where to begin. All the brokeness and ashes. How could beauty ever rise up out of this mess that filth and torment has left in its path. Some things are easy to discard and throw aside.... to forget and forgive. Others, well those people and events they leave scars. Most of the scars superficial, time heals those and eventually they fade, but those ones that are deep and maybe festered by bitterness, unforgivness, and mostly confusion those...those change us forever and we see them ever time we look in the mirror and thats all we can see. Its so heart breaking to know how beautiful we once were how innocent. Our choices our situations our unforgivable past. How could we ever be beautiful again?
 Beacause God so LOVED me.......
That He never left me nor forsaked me, He just loved me thru it all and when I fell into my Daddys arms He held me close and whispered his promises to me while He applied His healing balm of grace, mercy, and forgivness to my wounds. So that today I stand before Him and the world a beautiful and dignified woman thats not held back by shame and guilt but an overcomer by His blood and my scars.
Thank you God for never giving up on me and leaving me to the ugliness of my scars. That all things work for Your good and for always giving me the strength to endure.....come what may.