Admist The Storm

Amidst the storm comes the blessings.......
My life has been a living hell the last two weeks. If the emotion exists I have been through it. Everything came to a head last night. I got very quiet yesterday during the day while dealing with the insanity I call a marriage at the moment, fear, frustration, anger, and every other life threatening emotion the human mind can take before literally snapping. I was going to explode. Being quiet was becoming less of an option. And I was desperately searching for the hand of God to grab a hold of before I was lost to the abyss of depression and bitterness. The anger started to whel up inside me and I knew if I didn't get to God I was going to lash out and have repercussions. I always do.
Then God showed up just as I was about to loose hope he reached out his hand pulled me safely into his lap and hid me away beneath the strength of His arms. He gave me rest quieted my mind and I found His peace. I rose with understanding, rejuvenation, and ready for another days battle. Its not my strength but his that will endure me to the end. This is my road to walk out to a destiny beyond my ability. But that's why its all about Him. He is such a beautiful and gracious God.
I know now that unless my husband must search out Gods face diligently to find me and my children that make his family. What completes his dreams is resting and patiently waiting in Gods hands. I know tho that no matter what my earthly husband chooses, my heavenly Father will continue to hold the children and myself in Hands, always watching over us as doeting Father does.
All seemed lost yesterday until I gave it all to my Daddy and simply rested in Him. Today.... Well its a new day, Come What May.